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Monday, July 30, 2007

2:24 PM

omg it's joe seng xijie!!! HAHAHA

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

2:01 AM

one telephone call,a snowball of messages,a river flow of emotions.i am really confused now.strange i dont know why.a great mix of feelings of regret,love,joy and hate.funny to bring up the past which i thought i had finally let go.but i seemingly did not.funny as why not just when i thought i had found someone who would not play be out.i wish i can get answers.i wish there will be a sign.owells maybe it's just best for me to just sit back and be a cynic about the rest of my life.

could it be?

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Sunday, July 29, 2007

12:20 AM

like a flower quickly fading,she withers.watching the world crumble as time seemingly stands still.there is nothing she can do.she is helpless.what can someone so small,so insignificant do to make a difference?would such even matter?she tries to scream.but there is no sound.she tries to move about so someone would notice her.but to no avail.how can one possibly appear so big physically but deep inside she is so small.she hopes someone would listen.she hopes someone would actually care.a simple how are you would do.even though time is short and there was not much time to spare.she tries to be different.she tries to be the same.but no matter what she did.people will bitch about it yet again.would that day actually come where all is fine and well.where we could finially find euphoria,where there will be no more days of hell.she wonders aloud to herself.is it just her or is it them.she searches around for answers.but sometimes silence is only what she gets.if she has not changed much.then it's just the people around her.why is she so affected.why does she feel the hurt.she tries hard to be nice.not the same old person she used to be.but the actions and words she gets in return.is not what she had expected it to be.should she go back to her old ways.leading that seemingly bitchy immature life.or should she finally grow up and learn to take things in stride?

sometimes life can seemingly be so hard and so pathetic.

life: precious and fragile - (needs special handling)

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Saturday, July 28, 2007

7:36 AM

my my yesterday was omfgoodnesshell fun.ok despite the fact that i was late for school and was possibly marked absent.but yea aside from that.yesterday's dinner was really awesome.sirlion steak spells love not to mention sirlion with bacon and tiger prawns.crap i can almost taste it already.owells. anyway finally got the chance to head down to check out tim's new crib yesterday.must say i love his new place.its super chill and has this nice cosy atmosphere.talk about sweet.saw jason after so long.he looks really different with his new cut.owells spent the night just chilling and bitching about various people.lovely damn that's just something which i havent got about doing for a really long time.anyway

Drug syndicate smashed following high-speed chase, 7 traffickers arrestedBy Gamar Abdul Aziz, Channel NewsAsia Posted: 28 July 2007 2232 hrs

SINGAPORE: The Central Narcotics Bureau has smashed a drug syndicate in a major operation, arresting seven traffickers and two other offenders. Two of the arrested tried to escape in a white lorry, leading to a high-speed chase on Friday night. Despite the officers’ repeated attempts to signal the lorry driver to stop, the vehicle made a sharp illegal U-turn at Tampines Expressway, and went against the traffic. Traffic police used blinkers and sirens to warn drivers on the road during the chase. The white Mitsubishi Canter lorry was eventually stopped after crashing into a patrol car and mounting the kerb at Rivervale Drive in Sengkang. The driver and the front passenger then jumped out of the lorry suddenly and ran in different directions but were eventually arrested. The chase was part of a seven-hour operation in which S$71,000 worth of drugs - such as heroin, ecstasy, Erimin-5 and Subutex - were found. Some S$16,000 in cash, a Honda Civic and the lorry were also seized. - CNA/ac

how cool.this happened on the PIE at about 2.10 this morning and i was in the cab behind it."high-speed chase" not really.the truck was like travelling at 50km/hr.HAHA.talk about slow owells.my cab fare amounted to $20 because of its driving pace.blast.talk about from bukit timah to home.anyway it is said that "blinkers and sirens" were used but seriously blinkers were used but no sirens.suddenly im getting sick and tired of playing lady macbeth.owells

meet my baby (:

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

7:44 AM

marketing group project is finally over.thank god!its getting kinda disappointing as i just realised that i am starting to eat so much more than usual.bad.i need to lose weight not to mention i ate a shitload of fruits today.3 apples,1 mandarin,1 kiwi,some mango and a whole bunch of grapes.do fruits make you fat?owells saw a whole bunch of people "swimming" in the fountain pond thingy in school.talk about how retarded.any idea how dirty that water much be?!?HAHAHAH.owells.i noticed that i am starting to become really cynical about things.i always look upon something good as something which could have a hidden meaning.even though most of the times it does not have any.how strange.suddenly i wish that i am not that in touch with the world.that i can actually have my own space and quiet moments.i cant stand people who are possessive and are just so full of themselves.dammit please leave me alone.lately many people have been loading me with their problems too.i really wonder why.i dont like it when people tell me their sorrows and they try rub their sadness off me.what a turn off.ok but this only happens to those who do this to me ever so often.to my friends you know that i'll always be there for you.

staring out into the night, trying to hide the pain

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Monday, July 23, 2007

6:51 AM

how awesome!!thank you jac for the lovely donuts which flew over 11000km for me.yay!thanks girl!finally a load of my shoulders.no more media and society group projects to do next up marketing group and journalism individual.i think communications and media management is some kinda crazy ass course with the mother of all projects.owells i just cant wait for everything to be over now and that i can finally have my long much awaited one and a half months holiday.now that would just simply be utter bliss.saw dennis after so long today.what a pleasant surprise i must say.been having severe muscle aches lately.i really wonder why.owells.i noticed that everyone's getting pretty short fused lately.i guess its just simply due to the intense weight and stress which we've all been experiencing lately.i feel that sometimes i do get somewhat delusional.though yes i know it is bad.to all those out there who i might have offended in someway or another recently.i sincerely apologise.i wonder why am i so pms-y lately.i somehow feel that my friendships with same or starting to fade away slowly.it gets pretty upsetting when you come to think of it.tried salvaging it but to no avail.it gets sad.owells.anyway congrats melanie!!

building sandcastles in the sky

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

7:43 AM

how hypocritical can one get?how unfuckably true.this is a time when i so wish that i never got to know you and never ever got associated with you.fancy you to actually try to use me to so call "get connected" it is so pathetic now come to think of it.i cant believe i fell for that.you left me all numb and feeling stupid.so yes are you happy now that you have finally achieved your goal?that you could actually snoop down to such a level to actually make me pity you.since when did i ever become that gullible.at least like jac said "that that does not kill you only makes you stronger" from now on i shall just learn to steer clear of such people.to hell with you.seriously

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Sunday, July 15, 2007

8:13 AM

i somehow feel kind of guilty about the way i act and behave in the past.ok maybe i still do now but not as much as before.funny how i am always so quick to judge people.honestly i feel a little bad about it right now.it is wierd as i would always come up with a whole bunch of excuses so i would not need to be seen with them or near them.it was only recently when i just realised that hey some people who look the most distraught of them all can in fact be one of the nicest people whom you can ever meet.i dont know.i guess this is just something which i really need to change in.come to think of it.it really sounds pretty bad.owells.church was the bomb diggidy today.the leaders treated us lunch.damn how often do we actually get such actually but yea.talk about sweet?they call us the light of the world.the ambassadors of speedlight.but honestly i really dont think i am fit to be one somehow.i see so many flaws in myself that i dont think i can really be that much of a role model.i often wonder to myself.why am i always seemingly the black sheep whenever it comes to church?i seriously try my best to be toned down and not to anger others.honest

serenity

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Thursday, July 12, 2007

7:43 AM

today was omfghellafun.we bought half a watermelon,stole a bunch of forks,smoked at non-smoking areas (we fulfiled our dream),camwhored like the mother,bitched,played bridge,camwhored again,scaled walls and headed back to class as if nothing had happened.talk about the total fun shit.i just realised the world is so small today when i actually bumped into her.talk about shocked.i think aaron's current sem subject is hilarious.owells anyway the results of camwhoring.yay

what an eventful day.HAHAHAHA

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

10:38 AM

found this off mel's blog about yesterday's maketing talk frigging HILARIOUS yet o so true.HAHAHA.

"The most interesting thing that happened today was in Marketing tutorial. We had to create a television commercial and we decided to do tampons. The best part? We had to draw it out. HAH! Fucking hilarious, I swear.Slimpons - so slim, it could fit in your nose. For a free trial to soak your worries away please call -insert number-. Omgwtfhahaha. :D Should've seen our drawings. We even drew blood on it, and we made a mistake of drawing blood dripping, so we had to blanco it out. Exactly, wtf?!"

anyway finally finished up my individual assignments.talk about a load off your shoulders.i somehow feel somewhat "free-er"if there's even such a word.next up groups projects.someone please remind me that it is in two weeks time?!i swear my group yeapp we are indeed a procrastinating bunch.then again what's new right.HAHAHAHA.the forum today went pretty well.got to know new stuffs in my course.talk about the mother of all stress today.rushing to churn out a brochure within three hours.yes that's the kind of pressure we people face these days.and then they said poly life was so much easier than that of jcs.now trust me that is utter bull.anyways pictures from school.yay

they make school fun

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Monday, July 09, 2007

9:45 AM

the weekend was awesome.what can i say.i met my leading ladies.it was just awfully sad that thrishna was in Bali during that time.owells at least there's always oosh coming up soon so i suppose that will eventually make up for that.what is happening to my friend.i find it awfully uncomfortable when people start becoming all emo in front of me especially.alright some i can take but if it's too extreme then im sorry i cant.alright i guess i just dont quite like the feeling when someone's sadness is rubbing off me.it just seemingly makes me feel down too?alright just a food for thought.speaking for food.friday's dinner was good.right aaron.all the way down in siberia.(inside joke).anyway i am starting to like school more.everyone seems impressed that i am low profile this year.told you guys i was shy.o did i mention we did an advertisement on tampons today.HAHAHA.it was frigging hilarious.alright more drinking sessions soon darlings!pictures depicting my saturday.alright im just way too lazy to upload those from school as yet.heh.human nature!HAHAHA

my love, my life, my hoes (:

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Thursday, July 05, 2007

6:16 AM

im starting to love my clique more and more.from those drinking sessions to overhead smoking to shisha to bitching sessions.i am so thankful that i have finally managed to find such wonderful people in my course.i noticed that some people are just simple so childish.so much so that i think it is kind of retarded in fact.why try to be all that when you just arent and no sweetie popularity is never the whole point of anything.such is just simply called immature behavior.enough said.meeting aaron darling tomorrow.though it is pretty irritating that that guy does not want to tell me anything about transformers.owells.bring on the wine.more wine please.yay (:

the one thing that makes me happy

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Wednesday, July 04, 2007

4:47 AM

Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high
There's a land that I heard of
Once in a lullaby

Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true

Some day I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where troubles melt like lemondrops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Why then, oh why can't I?
Some day I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where troubles melt like lemondrops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Why then, oh why can't I?

If happy little bluebirds fly
Beyond the rainbow
Why, oh why can't I?

somewhere over the rainbow

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Tuesday, July 03, 2007

2:19 AM

how do you spell fun?school was fun.i realised that it is pretty bad to jack people in front of many.alright but it is pretty interesting i must say.the stupid security guard confiscated my deck of cards.can someone tell me what's wrong with bridge please?like hello.poster deadline-this friday.how screwed.suddenly everything just seems to be flashing before my eyes.it's pretty scary come to think of it.owells it'll pass i guess.doesnt it every time?

some pics of yesterday (:

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Monday, July 02, 2007

8:49 AM

met up with jac today.i miss that babe.she'll be leaving for us tomorrow.have fun babe (: cant believe that i ate that much just now.i finished the entired slab of ribs.tomorrow is aljunied photo taking day with the group.how dope.i am starting to dread graphics designing.being swamped by deadlines again.i guess sooner or later youll just see me waving that white flag yet again begging time to stand still so i can just finally take that well deserved break.gosh my friend is being damn mean now but owells i swear i just simply love bitching with him.jac darling send me the pics babe (:

lost in translation

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Sunday, July 01, 2007

7:59 AM

i met my bestfriend today.happiness.we walked a million miles.come to think of it that is indeed amazing.owells happy 10th anniversary hong kong on thy china handover.alright im lazy to type.the day in pictures.HOLLANDDDDD yay.

i love my bitch

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;